I can’t help but look at you and think
You’re the greatest man I’ve ever known
Small soft hands with strength so un-beholding
I can’t wait to see you
To smell you
To taste you once more
Be captivated by your body and your soul
Run my fingers through your hair
Feel your breath on my shoulder….
And think of the times in Chicago
With the warmth of the sun and your hand in mine
And the softest bed in the world…and you were mine.
If only I could hold you, stroke you, love you
Run my fingers through your soft curly black hair
And laugh because the strands are uneven
But I know you like it that way…
In my bikini watching you watch me
Running after you every chance I get.
Looking at the passers by
And wondering why
The old couples always seem so happy holding hands
Now why can’t you see me?
Can’t you even speak to me?
I know you’re asleep and that’s okay.
If only you knew me and only I knew you
And I could hold my tongue as I watch you get stoned
Not be angered by the alteration in your body chemistry
You feel you need in order to overthrow the government
Control …He wants no control
Neither do I, but I’m not submissive.
Though I do bend in order to accommodate rules in my life.
If only I could see you
If only I could touch you
If only I could run my toes up your legs once more
I miss you.
Why can’t I feel you?
My body seems all ragged and torn…
My eyes are burning
I can’t feel my legs
The night is almost over and I haven’t slept
Because I can feel you
Because I can hold you
But then I exhale and you’re not there.
You know I love you
And you know I feel you
You know I’ll always be there…
Someday I hope but maybe it won’t
Ever be what I want it to be.
I know you love me
And I know that you feel me
But do you want me consistently?
Maybe we’ll talk about it
Maybe we won’t
But someday I hope
We’ll be together
Just wait and see.